I love you always and forever mum, most days are hard day for me some days are manageable. I don't think I will ever wake up in the morning without feeling half my heart and soul has been blown in half but maybe just maybe ill learn to go on with that pain. You were and still are my everything, the first love of my life the first person and only person I truly bonded with and I miss that, I miss you so much. It feels like when I lost you I lost who I was too because you were everything and more that I wanted to be, your kind heart and warm smile taught me so many things in life, it showed me no matter what happens to u in life never allow it to harden your heart. You were the kindest, gentlest, sweetest most caring mother I could have ever asked for and I can say from the bottom of my heart I wouldn't swap having you as my mum for anything, I look around to find you and it breaks my heart that I can't see you I know and feel you in my heart. I will see you in heaven one day and I can't wait. All my love today and always, your shi xxxxxxx